Reminiscing Truths ⚓

I recently reverted this whole blog to draft because I realized I couldn't keep the blog and  keep up with my work at the same time. But I just decided to put it up again for rare opportunities like this to give the deep web a glimpse of the kind of life I have. Not that anyone would really care to read, but. Hehe. A college friend recently did an IG series of #beautifulthingsIlove, a collection of appreciation posts for all the people that made 2019 his best year. I thought that I could dedicate an entry here with that theme as well. This year, my heart is so full. Not because I had everything I ever wanted--if anything, I have my earthly hopes deferred. But it was this 2019 that I get to see God at work--in my life, in the brethren's lives, in the church.  So here are my 2019 highlights, the people for whom I am forever grateful. (Sorry, I ran out of creative transitions.) Family.  This year's been tough on us, and we sure had some major "restructuring...

Pililia Wind Farm, 2019 “I don't mind close-ups, I like them, but they're kind of forceful - you see a lot, you get a lot of information in a close-up. There's less mystery.” —David Duchovny When I saw this quote online, it got me thinking. Do we really lose the “mystery-ness” of things when we get more information about them? The sense of awe and wonder—do they fade as you see the things you admire at a closer perspective? Surely, with the imperfect and the flawed, the trend of feeling lesser awe as one sees more is set. Not necessarily because of the mere fact that you’ve seen more of it—but because, being imperfect, when we see more of something, we inevitably see more of its flaws. More depths to the beauty we have initially perceived, yes, sometimes. But the flaws, scars, dents, and imperfections that were so carefully hidden before are also now brought to light. In a different light, this fallen world, and everything in it, becomes less appealing. N...

Father, thank you for this time of silence  so I can listen more carefully and keenly at your Word.  Thank you for this rare opportunity for solitude,  away from trivial concerns and earthly cares,  that I may have the precious moments to attune my heart back to You. You have proven Yourself faithful, and because of this,  though imperfectly,  I have made it my aim to devote my life  to Thy service. But my heart is wicked, and my flesh weak, my will flickering, That at times the very act of my worship for You are the ones that split my devotion to You. Father, forgive. I acknowledge in humble contrition that my love for you is weak that my effort to draw near to you is fleeting, that my warmest thoughts for You are cold that my will to serve and to obey is as fickle  and faltering as the waves that recedes every time. I confess that my love for You is no...

And he said to them, "Why are you afraid, O you of little faith?" Then he rose and rebuked the winds and the sea, and there was a great calm.  -Matthew 8:26 Why indeed are you afraid, self? Fear enters in when you focus on the waves and not on the Savior who beckons you to Him out of the comfort of your boat. Fear comes when you doubt the Hand that holds you. Fear comes when you fix your gaze on the troubles that assail you instead of the grace and the Author of that grace that sustains you. When you trust your own planning more than you trust the Divine Orchestrator of everything from eternity past, and when things don’t go your way, you begin to dread and fear. When you rely on your ability to understand and make sense of things and to know what to do, you begin to fear. Because not everything in this world will make sense; you can’t deduce exactly what to do in every single situation you are placed in. You’re afraid because your faith is little. Y...

He whom the Lord loves, He disciplines. If you experience correction in your walk, rejoice. Not everyone is NOT left to their own destructive paths and ways. You hear the voice of God that reproves. Other have only silence. Every christian walking in his earthly journey still has a lot of learning and unlearning to do. If you see God’s hands coming down to you, and with great might, find comfort in this: that He makes your crooked ways straight. His hands are not to condemn you, but to correct you. So HATE your sin, Christian. Know that each crooked act and way is an offense against the Almighty God. Be wretched and mourn and weep. Mortify your sins; do not give any room for them, not even their shadow. Flee from them and their temptations. Discipline yourself, beat your body black and blue, lest you become disqualified and you fail to meet the test. Strip off your sinful and crooked ways, lest you find yourself unfit for the Kingdom. But also, learn to kiss the waves that ...