Reminiscing Truths ⚓

  July 8, 2021 | 11:15 AM Overfamiliarity breeds contempt. I don’t know why I feel this way, but I feel tired of being a friend and then being discarded whenever I’m not convenient to be around anymore. They don’t say it, but I think at some point everyone thinks that of me. When it’s limited slots, I’d be one of the first people to go. Excess baggage they’ve been just able to keep around the dock when the storm wasn’t hitting yet, but one of the first cargos to go when the waves become rocky. I don’t really resent them because I would also do the same to myself—throw myself out the window the moment I don’t contribute anything to the table if only I had the choice. Haha but I’m stuck with myself. But yeah, I feel like I’m that add-on friend people just befriend because anyway, I’m already there. I just happened to be in the same circle because a friend plus oned me at some point, and now they’re pretty much stuck with me. Arielle’s friend. Someone's church mate. Always s

  January 16, 2021 | 10:16 PM “But it ain't our feelings we have to steer by through life--no, no, we'd make shipwreck mighty often if we did that. There's only the one safe compass and we've got to set our course by that—what it's right to do.” ―   L.M. Montgomery Ever since falling in love with Anne Shirley—and Captain Jim!—back in high school, I have gone back to this quote over the years time and time again. I’ve literally lost track of how many times I wrote this line down somewhere, everywhere—written in small memos, hand lettered on watercolor paper, penned in my journals, typed in my Notes… Like I said, countless. I think aside from Augustine’s “You have made us for yourself” quote, Montgomery’s is the only other quote that’s ever perennially close and dear to my heart. And I bet it’s pretty obvious why. There are just so, so many times when my feelings are extremely contrary to what’s right to do. A lot of days in teaching felt like having to drag my feet a